Ambienine

Work was highly highly stressful.   Just want to cry about that.

I want a Wacom Tablet but don't know if I want to drop that kind of money.  it's a lot:(  at least for the one I want.

I want a website of my own too but I need to learn how to code or something again.... or at least find someone who wants to code for me lol.

Cramps.  Aunt Flo came back to town finally..... she hasn't been around since I conceived Will.  I hurt....can't say I missed the bitch.... but she's back and that's ok too.

Oh well.... I want to go to bed so I'll hopefully write more tomorrow... if I can remember.

So Sari nudge-ed me.... so I write.  Right now probably isn't the best time since I am sicky-poo but no time like the present.

My head's all clogged.  it bites.  but yet my nose is running.  I forgot Purell when I went to the walgreens.  Damnit.  I got a Sudafed Vapor Plug, Zicam nose swabbies, a Vicks personal inhaler, and some Walgreen's knock-off Centrum Vitamins.  Ugh I feel so disconnecty.  And Sterling is being a dick.  Awesome.

I gotta go.  I can't hardly see straight.

I got a new addition.... lol meet hockey buck....

So I've been waaaaaaaay tired.  What has happened in the last few months??

*HIM came to Tempe.... the girls (well only Risa and Kirsty but it was goooooooood) and I went on up and saw them.  Ville..... *drool*

*Will has gotten so so big!  He's a lump of baby joy!

*I got toe surgery.... ingrown fun.  That shit is waaaaaaaaaay gnarly!  and not having 1/3 of your toenail looks kinda weird too.

I just saw what time it was.... I need to get over to my mommy's!  Will write more later!

I'm thinking I need to get a paid LJ account.  I want a site but I have limited knowledge of html, css, and any sort of publishing and design software.  I have an older version of Photoshop bopping around somewhere.... but I kinda want to get the latest and learn how to do some amazing things.  I also want to have a sufficient space to put pictures up.... once i edit them and compress them and what not.  Right now they are HUGE and I haven't any editing software..... when this p.o.s. had to be fixed EVERYTHING got wiped.... all the good software and what not.  It's pretty bare-bones.

Oh well.... just a thought..... gonna go finish my chores now.

Ok so today I have been feeling not cool.... more chest tightness and pain.  My head started feeling wonky too.... while I was driving even.  Scared the piss outta me.  Gonna try to get an appt. with the dr. tomorrow.  Prawlem is that for "same-day care" appts you have to call in @ 7:30 am and be one of the lucky 4 people to snag that day's spots.  My Dr. is very popular.... I've won once out of 4 times I've tried.

There was a murder not too far from my mom's house... about three blocks over and 2 up.... a 17 yr old was gunned down by his 23 yr old brother.  Pretty fucking dicked.

I'm tired and stuff.... laters.

.... but I'm back now.

Well let's see..... I've been kicked out of my aunt's *big suprise*, had to move in with my future mother-in-law *....yay....?*, lacked internet access until this last sunday, had a PILE of email to go through, and now I'm finally able to do the fun stuff lol.

Last Thursday (10/20) I went to interview for the chance for a promotion. The way my company works you have to interview and pass the sort of test for the chance to fill a position when it comes up. I passed though so I can be promoted when an opening comes up.

William is getting so so big. He is such a funny bunny. Within this last week or so he has started getting his teeth... two on the bottom. He rolls over and scoots like crazy; can't quite get the crawl mechanics yet, but he can move.

I can't think right now.... I'll have to write more at night when I can think more clearly.

...but I'm a very very busy slacker. 

Will is getting so so big!  I am amazed everyday by him.  He smiles and coos now.  He and I will have conversations every once in a while.  My mom can get him to smile a lot for her and talk to her a lot too which makes me sorta jealous but i think he knows I'm the law and she's the spoil-factory.  He's buttering her up early.  Little turd.

Work is... well, exhausting.  My back has hurt at least once a day since the surgery and it worries me a little.  I have mad grips of 800 mg ibuprofen and even a few percoset left *wheeeeee* but i still have ouchies.  I think I might start going to see Sterling's chiropractor.  If  it helps....  It's also very very hard to be away from Will for practically 10 hours at a time (8 hr shift plus travel time).  I miss him terribly at work and keep his little hospital picture in my pocket and look at it every once in a while.  It makes me a little happier but ideally I'd be home with the lil squirt:)

Sterling is pretty much going to start working with another company locally.  He's holding out for one company in particular but he's already had 2 offers come in from others.  If the one he wants won't have him he's got two decent backups.  Makes me pretty happy since he can be here and see his son grow up.

Today is cleaning day.  Oh boy oh boy.  I've just scrubbed down the shower with my new Mr Clean Magicreach *whoo whoo*.  Works pretty well and didn't aggrivate my already pained back:)  Yeah, Mr Clean has come out with some of the best cleaning shit out there.  Magic Erasers, M.E. Duos, MagicReach.... I love 'em!  Next to finish the bebe's room and then..... dun dun dun..... my room.

Oh yeah, speaking of my room..... Dianna wants me to move out seeing as Sterling is going to be home full-time now.  She said she can't stand him being here all the time.  Whoot.  So I'm not going to be so much CLEANING as I am going to be PACKING..... again..... I move like every year now.... it's no fun at all.  But it's better because we were getting almost to the highly unpleasant mode.

Well, back to work.... all play and no work is fun but it makes the house a pigsty.

Sigh.

Have to go back to work tomorrow.

Sad to leave Will for 8+ hours at a time.

Am going to be pumping. My milk supply seems low or had to express. Anyone have ideas to make it easier/boost supplies?

*sobs, more sobs*

Guess I should write in here more..... I hate the keyboard on the laptop though so typing is a bitch on this thing.  The keys are too flat and too close together.  Bleh.

I have not too much longer before i have to go back to work.  I am not much looking forward to it.  I'll miss the days getting to hold and love on my snuggly baby boy..... he's such an awesome lil guy.  My mom wants to watch him which is neat.  Bonding time for them:)

My incision is healed.  About time.

My boss calls me about once a week and wants to know when I am coming back.  She misses me something fierce i think.

Well I am majorly tired. Figured I'd take a (rare) free moment to say hi y'all!  Laters!